(I deleted most everything I had here. It’s safe enough now.)

I’m going to Michigan in July. My sister is getting married. I’m using that as a reason to push forward right now. I’ll get to see my twinn and spend 2 whole weeks with her. I’ll get to see my best friends. I’ll try and con Keith into paying for Chinese, haha. I’m going with b to Warped Tour for the first time, and we’re going to see Yellowcard together. Such a brilliant band. These are happy things; these are things to look forward to.

On a completely different note, I’ve been trying and trying to find femdom books to read that look interesting. I’ve found one I really liked (Natural Law by Joey W. Hill), and started another (Still by Ann Mayburn), and there’s a third that has my curiosity insanely piqued, but I haven’t bought it, but I’m thinking of caving in and just getting it because how the fuck does it work, I mean, seriously (Deliver by Pam Godwin). If I told you what I know of this book, you would be looking at me going, “How the fuck does that become a love story?” the same way I’m looking at the goddamn author wondering the same fucking thing. How is that shit supposed to even work!? (What I wouldn’t give for an interrobang key. Shut up, spell checker, that is a real word.) I am so fucking tempted to just buy it already and sate my curiosity. (EDIT: I gave in and bought the bloody book. Seriously, how the shit is this supposed to even work!?)

Anyone know any good femdom books I could read?

geekykristie:

To be answered and completed with grace and understanding on both sides of opinions expressed: Let your opinions pour out, but you don’t have to be a dick about it now do you? And you may severely disagree with someone but are you really going to unfollow or bug them about it? That said, answer and read at your own discretion. 

1. A selection of television programs you do not care for.
I no longer care for Glee. I was done with it by the second to last episode of season 3. Although I love Ace of Cakes, I don’t really enjoy Cake Boss. I also tried, but don’t like Community, Big Bang Theory, or Parks and Recreation. I just don’t find them funny or interesting.
2. A selection of musical artists you do not care for. 
Insert most country or rap artists, Also Justin Bieber disgusts me, but that’s a personal opinion.
3. A selection of celebrities you couldn’t care less about.
I don’t follow Hollywood, really. Um. Lindsey Lohan? The Olsen twins? Darren Criss?
4. A hobby you “don’t get”.
I do not understand extreme couponing. My sister does it. I still don’t get it, but she enjoys herself, so I guess that’s good.
5. A habit you find disgusting.
Not taking care of your nail clippings after you trim your nails. The trash isn’t really that hard to find, is it?
6. Something in school you really liked doing that everyone else bitched over.
Reading, writing, drawing, music, musicals. There was always someone hating on the fact that I wanted to be alone to do my own thing at any given time.
7. Your favorite household chore.
It used to be doing laundry (back when I had a washer and dryer in my apartment), but now it’s probably doing dishes or vacuuming. But I have to be in the right mood to want to do either.
8. Popular video games that make you go “meh”.
Kingdom Hearts. Candy Crush Saga. Final Fantasy VII (I’m a Final Fantasy VIII fan).

9. PC or MAC?
PC, but then again, I’ve never really used a Mac more than just poking at my friend’s for about five minutes.
10. A sport you don’t like, for whatever reason.
I don’t like American football, or basketball, or baseball, or softball.
11. A sport you really like, for whatever reason.
Hockey. Go Red Wings!
12. Television programs you love but have gotten shit for liking.
Besides Glee? The live action Sailor Moon (PGSM, aka Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon).
13. Musical artists you love but have gotten shit for liking.
I’ve gotten shit for being a fan of Good Charlotte, Fall Out Boy, Yellowcard, My Chemical Romance, and Simple Plan at different times.

14. A hobby you have/find interesting that other people bother you over/make fun of.
Enjoying musicals, perhaps? There are so many good ones, but enjoying Legally Blonde: The Musical gets me mocked sometimes (but not in a serious way, I think).
15. A habit you have that other people bug you over.
Cracking my knuckles over and over and over. Like, I don’t have to stop, really. I can keep going past when most people I’ve met have stopped. Drives my mom nuts.
16. Something in school you hating doing and it felt like everyone else loved.
I don’t know if this counts but pep rallies are awful, terrible things. I mean, yay for getting out of class? But if I gave a damn about the school’s team sports or most of the people in the stands alongside me, I would have come here voluntarily rather than being herded into the gym with the rest of the student body.
17. The household chore that makes you want to shoot your own face off.
The dishes. Sometimes I like them. Other times I hate them with a fiery passion.
18. A selection of video games that you enjoy that perhaps you really shouldn’t.
I really like playing Sims 3. Yes, I very much enjoy God Mode, haha. There’s just something fun about controlling the lives of little people.
19. A celebrity crush that maybe even you don’t understand.
Um… I’d have to go with Kari Byron, and Josh Dallas. But that’s TV. So from movies I’d go with Chris Pine, and Angelina Jolie.
20. Free rant on whatever grinds your gears at the moment.
I really, really hate Windows 8 (and 8.1 now that I’m upgraded to it). I kind of wish I could go back to Windows 7. At least it made sense.

geekykristie:

To be answered and completed with grace and understanding on both sides of opinions expressed: Let your opinions pour out, but you don’t have to be a dick about it now do you? And you may severely disagree with someone but are you really going to unfollow or bug them about it? That said, answer and read at your own discretion. 

1. A selection of television programs you do not care for.

I no longer care for Glee. I was done with it by the second to last episode of season 3. Although I love Ace of Cakes, I don’t really enjoy Cake Boss. I also tried, but don’t like Community, Big Bang Theory, or Parks and Recreation. I just don’t find them funny or interesting.

2. A selection of musical artists you do not care for. 

Insert most country or rap artists, Also Justin Bieber disgusts me, but that’s a personal opinion.

3. A selection of celebrities you couldn’t care less about.

I don’t follow Hollywood, really. Um. Lindsey Lohan? The Olsen twins? Darren Criss?

4. A hobby you “don’t get”.

I do not understand extreme couponing. My sister does it. I still don’t get it, but she enjoys herself, so I guess that’s good.

5. A habit you find disgusting.

Not taking care of your nail clippings after you trim your nails. The trash isn’t really that hard to find, is it?

6. Something in school you really liked doing that everyone else bitched over.

Reading, writing, drawing, music, musicals. There was always someone hating on the fact that I wanted to be alone to do my own thing at any given time.

7. Your favorite household chore.

It used to be doing laundry (back when I had a washer and dryer in my apartment), but now it’s probably doing dishes or vacuuming. But I have to be in the right mood to want to do either.

8. Popular video games that make you go “meh”.

Kingdom Hearts. Candy Crush Saga. Final Fantasy VII (I’m a Final Fantasy VIII fan).

9. PC or MAC?

PC, but then again, I’ve never really used a Mac more than just poking at my friend’s for about five minutes.

10. A sport you don’t like, for whatever reason.

I don’t like American football, or basketball, or baseball, or softball.

11. A sport you really like, for whatever reason.

Hockey. Go Red Wings!

12. Television programs you love but have gotten shit for liking.

Besides Glee? The live action Sailor Moon (PGSM, aka Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon).

13. Musical artists you love but have gotten shit for liking.

I’ve gotten shit for being a fan of Good Charlotte, Fall Out Boy, Yellowcard, My Chemical Romance, and Simple Plan at different times.

14. A hobby you have/find interesting that other people bother you over/make fun of.

Enjoying musicals, perhaps? There are so many good ones, but enjoying Legally Blonde: The Musical gets me mocked sometimes (but not in a serious way, I think).

15. A habit you have that other people bug you over.

Cracking my knuckles over and over and over. Like, I don’t have to stop, really. I can keep going past when most people I’ve met have stopped. Drives my mom nuts.

16. Something in school you hating doing and it felt like everyone else loved.

I don’t know if this counts but pep rallies are awful, terrible things. I mean, yay for getting out of class? But if I gave a damn about the school’s team sports or most of the people in the stands alongside me, I would have come here voluntarily rather than being herded into the gym with the rest of the student body.

17. The household chore that makes you want to shoot your own face off.

The dishes. Sometimes I like them. Other times I hate them with a fiery passion.

18. A selection of video games that you enjoy that perhaps you really shouldn’t.

I really like playing Sims 3. Yes, I very much enjoy God Mode, haha. There’s just something fun about controlling the lives of little people.

19. A celebrity crush that maybe even you don’t understand.

Um… I’d have to go with Kari Byron, and Josh Dallas. But that’s TV. So from movies I’d go with Chris Pine, and Angelina Jolie.

20. Free rant on whatever grinds your gears at the moment.

I really, really hate Windows 8 (and 8.1 now that I’m upgraded to it). I kind of wish I could go back to Windows 7. At least it made sense.

(via sircolinmorgan)

I could say I’m sorry for all of the Once Upon A Time spam, but I honestly wouldn’t mean it. So… sorry for not being sorry?

Although, I need to find more Once Upon A Time blogs. I’ll still blog about whatever I feel like, of course. Merlin, depression, Fall Out Boy, whatever. But right now, I want to see pretty pictures from the show. If it bothers you overmuch, please unfollow. I won’t be offended.

But, anyway, I need to get back to working on my story for Nanowrimo, so that’s probably all the Once blogging I’m going to get to do tonight.

Too Long; Didn’t Read: I have issues. No shit. Fuck off.

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Sometimes I hate that I feel unable to talk about this stuff out loud until it’s too late.

It’s my fault I can’t. I don’t know if I know how. I bottle things. I don’t know how to try and get past this blockage in my brain.

I know I am at fault in this. I know I should probably try to change it. I just… I’m stupid, I guess. I just don’t know how.

Sometimes I honestly think I don’t deserve to be happy and that every misery placed upon me is well deserved. And I don’t know how to change that feeling, or if I even should.

Trigger warning.

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Sometimes I think that I never want to be touched again.

Trigger warning.

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